I’m not particularly nostalgic about the music of my teens, but I was lucky to have seen a moment when all it needed was a massive increase in MDMA ingestion to make people not want to be violent thugs anymore. I tend to believe in recreational pharmacology more than human nature.
Found that MDMA stuff piss-boring myself, but a huge airburst of Love Thy Neighbour bombs in the style of Lem’s The Futurological Congress, could be the only thing that could save us from ourselves now.
Impromptu raves at every set of traffic lights!
No more debate with far-right ideologues FFS! No more of the sophistry of the cult of rationalism!
Sure, I know my solution is of the Destroy All Rational Thought variety, but at this stage I feel it’s less about saving the human race than making extinction an enjoyable process. The “objective” environment would go to shit, but in terms of merciful release it’s all good.
At the moment the other version of the leaving the planet solution requires a huge spaceflight investment. And even if there was the capital for that, I’m not sure that the time is there. The population needs to be transported from the earth soul first. Leave the dying body behind.
“Hey!” I hear you object, “this just sounds like a solution for a ruling elite to dispose of the population.”
Well, they are very welcome to the screwed environment they inherit. It’d become more a heaven/hell on an unmechanistic model of Teilhard De Chardin’s Noosphere than the interwebs that have accelerated this crisis.
“Earth is the cradle of humanity, but one cannot remain in the cradle forever.” — Konstantin Tsiolkovsky.
On those odd moments in the small hours when I haven’t been able to sleep I have been reading Robert Smithson interviews. When I was younger I did this with Carl Jung. Which led to interesting lucid dreaming experiences.
Earlier today I was wandering along the building work on the new hydroelectric facility on the River Mur, observing the earthworks and construction work, having a little internal conversation with Bob Smithson’s ghost as I walked.
He would have been an unusually informed walking partner: local geology, tectonic strata and the like would have punctuated the space (or non-site). His Monuments of Passaic is filled with these sorts of concerns about edgelands and new sorts of unregarded (sub)urban spaces. But we would have had common cause comparing notes on such matters as the use of river paths for local cyclists on Central Park and the Grand Union Canal. Their ideal and historical uses compared with contemporary deployment.
I crossed the river at the third completed hydroelectric dam down towards Feldkirchen, near the airport. Bob would have made a half-amused wince at Flughafen Graz, like you see on statues of saints, carrying the emblems of their martyrdom. His death in a helicopter accident almost fifty years ago still not quite comfortable. I’m unsure how he’d react to the Roman ruin on the landing strip; his concerns were usually more Mayan than European.
We could disagree on that at the Hells Angels bar just up the road over a quiet Puntigamer or two.
Turned out that pointillisme wasn’t for me. Words suggest themselves
to you to accept or reject. You put in the hours for a while. Am I a
pointilliste? You make a thousand dots. A thousand more. Zali Krishna –
pointilliste, is that a thing? You put it back down again. Why is there
even that frenchified e at the end? It wasn’t you.
Avoids the obvious pun and moves on.
Other broader words assail you on yr way from place to place. Happiness. Freedom. Am I happy? You try on a smile
and walk it around the place. Happy Krishna, is that what they’ll call
me? It becomes a lot to live up to. I want to be free of that. Am I a
free man? You become quite unhappy with the expectation of it.
Humming Me & Bobby McGee for a bit helps. At least you know y’re not Janis Joplin.
If you could become free of words that grasp, without that being a
conceptual conceit in itself, well, y’know… that’d be alright,
I’m fairly convinced that my conscious and unconscious swapped over. Some time in the late 90s. It’s probably not such an uncommon occurrence. It’s less dramatic than it sounds: it was most likely just agreed that the unconscious was doing most of the driving in any case. I think I can even pinpoint the exact weekend when it happened. There’s not really space to go into the details here, and in practice it probably makes little difference, but it might explain why the nonexistence of the unconscious has recurred so much in my writing.
Sure, it looks pretty alarming in narrative terms: so what am I?
This creature from the psyche who ambushed a twentysomething Zali Krishna and ate him?
I mean for one thing that creature is also Zali Krishna, and for another it was over twenty years ago: you never met the guy! Because of course this is only a way of talking about the thing. For someone else with a different model of the self, they might describe it as the day they accepted Christ as their Lord and Saviour. Whatever works really. No-one asks what happens to the unredeemed residue of christian.
I find it interesting that in German the word for “christian” is “Christ”. You literally become a Christ. A eschatological singularity, a noosphere, where at the End of Time everyone is Christ. In those terms it makes PKD’s little amphetamine cosmologies seems pretty tame.
To return to the original problem: if it’s about explaining what you are, this swapover between conscious and unconscious is a useful device.
Do I feel like an animal? No.
A machine? Not quite.
An angel? Not today.
The guy who crept out of my own head to fix stuff? That fits.
And what happened to Zali Krishna from the twentieth century who you replaced, you thieving bastard?
Uh, as far as I can make out, he’s eating crisps and reading magazines. Is there something he can help you with? He’s pretty busy at the moment.